I wanted to ask any potential reader of this if, by any chance, someone might share interests in kabbalah, especially regarding the tale of the "Book of Splendour/Radiance/The Zohary", the major mystical work of hebrew fundamental text of kabbalah? I do have a romanian version of the text, but i fear that the translated text can't offer a reader the knowledge originally offered by this complicated text. And ofcourse, in kabbalah, the words used, their order, any detail that has been removed from the book is of great significance. Yes, this book - the version i own - can offer me an unfortunately superficial, vague idea of the very least kind of understanding of the storyline and, maybe, the same kind of notion about the characters involved, the origins of the sephirots and their part. Thus, it is of great importance that I studied the closest thing to the original... You probably ask yourselves why it is of so great importance to me that I did this - and you're right... Well, I am not sure that my motivation can satisy the requirements I would need to fulfill to be entitled to such a great honor, however, i must do this, out of the respect I owe to Life itself, for I need to know the original archetype of this myth to be able to proceed fairly in my life, as I need to analyze, I am most honoured to do so and fascinated and motived to insist as further as this takes me, myself. This means well... I need it for my very own psycho-analysis. I am willing to share this kind of privacy to anyone that is highly informed in this matter. I will realise if you are informed or not by the way you talk and what you choose to say also, I trust my intuition even more than I trust my sight. You may say and even make a correct statement if you consider me a narcisist and, because of that, look towards me with disregard. But if I cannot have the deepest kind of look into myself, to establish who I really am and what and why I need to choose to control in the name of ethics and for the same reason, for the respect I willingly or not owe to Life itself and the human nature; these are all very complex matters and I do realise what is right and what is probably wrong, and it is the first time in my life this has happened to me. Also, it is the first time I don't owe these "revelations" to any kind of drug, and they are continuos and I am finally ready to endure any sacrifice in the name of dedicating my life to actually do something relevant for everyone Also, I appologise, indeed I do realise my speech sounds fake and thus my credibility significantly goes down because of it. But here I take the chance of trusting nature, hoping that if I write this the very way I thought it, or closest thing to it, you can ..well... know would be bestly said... better than "feel" it. I guide myself by the fact that we all share this together, even though the way we percieve "it" (everything as the system that defines life in all that is neutral ... indeed, i said it poorly. hehe... a little something i feel i must add is that it's never enough... for anyone who was meant to live and share all that can be shared in this plane with... everyone else: it's NEVER enough. (hmm, maybe this is one of the basic laws of ... everything. poorly said. my point is i dare to share this with you: I believe that this is included as part/one of the basic ...sephiroths? maybe? I ask you, potential reader of respectable knowledge gained in the are I am so desperately interested in, would you DO the highly wordless, speechless respectably act of giving me, for starters, the chance to prove you I won't do the low gesture of ... not show and share with you the fruits of this ... even though dictated by nature gesture ... as far as I humbly have been informed, maybe wrong, I am not in the position of trusting myself or not in undisputed certainty or uncertainty. However, I am aware that I might be right in some maybe, few, isolated cases - i cannot know their number, that's probably how it is... - I might be right in making some statement that not only are not logically plauzible, but neither in any other human path of understanding. For now, I don't dare to go that far, for I trust that, judging by the kind of understanding described by Jung, when he described how individuality works, distinctely than personality. I know I won't win any popularity show, that is not the intention here and what I have to mention is that I promise, solemnly and iretrievebly that I will not even dare to make a comment of any kind other than positive and encourageing, regarding this are of personality and/or individuality or anthing else in the defense of my offering of respect and/or my own statements. I will take full responsibility for anything anyone might/did understand of the things I said and I will keep a decent and as socially pleasant as i willingly or not permitted by using these parameters to concieve this messege and to make it public. I take responsibility for any consequences I might or even unforgievebly actually did not foresee while writing this. Of any kind. I am sorry I did not offer you the certainty of a more trust-worthy detaliation or that I was not able to find the decency to gather myself into writing the very least summarry of the things included and in stead, I could only give you a vain generalisation. I'm really sorry and ashamed. I wished I were a better person and that I could comunicate these things as you, the potential reader, deserves it with uttermost respect. This messege should get as close as possible to the kind of lack of ambiguity it undeniebly owes to its potential readers and I am really sorry it doesn't. And that's why I will quietly and respectfully follow any monsters it may horribly generate. I owe deepest appologies by now to everyone, separately and as a whole, for I have already made the choice of publishing it... And also, sorry, I find it even harder to end - i don't know when, for it has been incomplete and will keep on being so, no matter what, and all that i do show is even more unjustified courage and undeserved, unjustified will and again, deepest appologies, nerve/lack of respect of the most ugly kind, the more I seem to try to explain myself. Right which, I don't even deserve to be entitled to. And I know my suggestion shows me unworthy and despiseable, but I can only hope you somehow feel it is the natural way for me. I dare not say why, for I am certain it sounds too ... I shall say "unbelievable" because any other words I might use will iretreveably show you that which I myself would not forgive if I dared to show it as it... maybe is.

*Note: Any person with any knowledge of "the book of splendour/radiance", kabbalah, the Babel Tower, the sephiroths, hel, the beggining and the end of the world described in the book I know by the name of "The Zohar", is probably better informed that I myself could... so please say anything you know if you do, even if it might seem a detail or something i could find elsewhere. I will not judge, for I am not worthy, no matter the case... I can only count on the fact that this is interesting enough for those who have been more or less enlightened in this are, not to ignore, and that I managed to gather enough decency when writing this to not have scared off the potential readers by the ... unjustified and superfial quality i allowed myself maybe a bit too much too far upon the text: the style and lenght. I at least began to offer an answer to this no less important issue. For who am I to judge? Also, I rely on this kind of thinking when I hope it gives me a better credibility when I say: I only say that I, particulary, am in no position to judge what i started myself; It is not what I expect or even decieve myself that everyone else must do. No, this is what I chose, started and so on so... I am deeply fascinated on what i see, in shameless fog ofcourse unfortunately, that might follow... Also if someone is interested as well to proceed in studies on this matter, I would be delighted to exchange point of views/information/even materials owned or simply discuss something, anything even slightly related to this Unconventional approaches and connections you might suspect is related to this topic, are if anything, encouraged If I don't keep my word, than I will close my deviantart account and never show the nerve to return, after I deleted all of my deviations. Ban me, I don't know, I'm just trying to seem reasonable enough ... I'll stop here; also sorry I repeated some things in some ways.